No energy. Fatigue. So much pain (especially headaches, joint pain, back pain). My gut is constantly disturbed. I'm either never hungry, or still starving after eating.
Food isn't food to my body; I don't want anything. I'm depressed. I am so tired of all of this, I just want to be done with it. Emotions are distant things; motivation is absent.
DP is fixing dinner (because he's a wonderful human being and takes care of me far beyond what I deserve), and though I can smell the tater tots and fish, my stomach is still feeling rebellious and, at the same time, completely disinterested.
I get exhausted at about 8pm. I spend the day in a brain fog, with no motivation to do anything. I start weeping for no obvious reason. Right now I am in too much pain (my back/spine, my neck, my joints, m head, my jaw, the lower back muscles, my shoulders) for me to be able to stand doing anything for more than a couple minutes.

Food might be ready, and I can't find a comfortable way to sit and write. Sorry, both for the short length of this blog, and for the topic. I don't like going on (online) about all the ways my life/health sucks. I feel like it gets boring.
Hopefully sleep will help ...

Losing My Mind

I'm sure it's a fairly common occurence. You walk into a room, and as you do so, you completely forget what it was you wanted to get. Or do? You can't remember. It's really frustrating, because you know as soon as you go back to what you were doing before, you'll remember, and so you'll have to make the trip all over again.

Now, imagine that happening all the time. With everything. You get on the computer, knowing there was something specific you wanted to do. And it's completely gone. Sponged out.
And there's no guarantee that it'll ever come back.

That's me, now. Every day. With so much that I do. I'm living in this haze.

And it's only after I write all this that I finally remember that I wrote the things I needed to get done on my hand, so I'd remember.

Anyway. I just logged onto the public computer so I could do something I've been needing to do for a little while, and as the computer was loading, I thought: Now, what did I need to do? I thought I needed to do something, but what was it?
So, my first reaction was to come here and write about it.
I'm thinking about starting a new blog specifically about thyroid problems. I can share all the interesting things I learn, and all my scary no-brain moments. It might be interesting.

So, I need to get going.