30 August 2009

The Art of Suicide & Lemonade

It occurred to me that I needed a day planner, and since there's so much of the year left, I decided I could try to find a used or otherwise discounted 2009 planner online. I found an awesome planner: the 2009 Mood Organizer, by
It's great; it gives you places to note your activities, how much sleep you get, medications, etc. It's totally made for manic-depression. So, I went to the website, hoping for something useful.
This is what I found:

"Someone once said, 'When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.' And, today there are entirely too many lemons still laying around with lots of thirsty people standing by waiting for a drink."

Emilie Autumn talks about this sort of thing in her song The Art of Suicide:
Why live a life
That's painted with pity
And sadness and strife
Why dream a dream
That's tainted with trouble
And less than it seems
Why bother bothering
Just for a poem
Or another sad song to sing
Why live a life
Why live a life

The idea being: don't kill yourself, you have so much to give! And her answer is, Why, so I can write another sad song, for other people? What about myself? Fuck you!
Which was my thought when I read the lemonade comment. I should suffer so other people can profit from the fruit of my suffering? Fuck you! Make your own damn lemonade.

Anyway. I feel I should mention that I am not feeling suicidal. (Still manic, as far as I can tell.) I just don't want to be told that I'm suffering for the good of others.

Anyway, if I hop to it, I might be able to get some writing in today before my friend Rae's birthday party.

Love you all!

1 comment:

  1. Hi how are you?

    I was looking through your blog, and I found it interesting, and inspiring to me, so I thought why not leave you a comment.

    I too have a blog that I use out of Southern California here in San Diego.

    Mostly it is a collection of artistic expression, and I have many friends with the same interests, maybe you can become my friend, and follow, and I can also follow you, if that is okay.

    Well I hope to hear from you soon, and or read about you….LOL



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