05 September 2009


So, my planner arrived. It's pretty great. This is apparently the first year of them publishing this thing, though, and there are typos and other annoyances. Whatever. I kinda wish there was a little more room, so I could more easily write in all the food I eat. I can do that, but then there's not enough room to use it as a planner.

Anyway, either I'm just not getting manic as often during the day the past couple of days, or I am currently switching back and forth between euphoria/mania and euthymia. (According to this Wikipedia article, "Euthymia is a word used for indicating a normal, non-depressed, reasonably positive mood. It is distinguished from euphoria, which refers to an extreme of happiness, and dysthymia, which refers to a depressed mood. It is a term used frequently in mental status exams. The term is also sometimes used referring to the neutral mood (absence of a depressive or manic cycle) that some people with bipolar disorder experience with varying frequency.")
It would be great to have euthymia show up occasionally, so I'm basically okay with the lulls of not-manic.

Anyway, in other news, I have to work later tonight, but I am not working, like, at all, next week. (Six hours.) So I'm spending some time next week looking for a new job.
Actually, I'm kinda worried about that. My life, in regards to money/jobs, sucks. I work very little, usually, leaving me with vast gaping holes of free time in which I never do enough (either because I'm depressed, and can't, or because I'm manic, and I can't do as much as I think I should be able to/I spend all my time doing nothing useful) ... for example, I don't write nearly as often as I should. Also, I make very little money, which leaves me in debt, constantly stressed, and eating crap food, because it's cheaper.
But. Because of this lifestyle, I can afford to spend all day sleeping/laying in bed staring at the ceiling, when I'm depressed. I can afford to stay up until 4am doing absolutely nothing on the computer when I'm manic. I wouldn't be able to do that if I had a decent 40-hr/week job that actually paid me something.
Blah. I don't know. We'll see, I guess, as always.


1 comment:

  1. Apple One is hiring for ADP call center seasonal work. I did that last year and it was really great, 40 hours a week, 11.50 an hour. Contact the Sugarhouse branch and ask about it.


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